If there is one thing I dread more than anything, it’s making decisions. Especially those seemingly drastic, life-altering decisions such as what grad school I’ll end up at, who I might spend the rest of my life with, where to move, what internship to take, etc. I’m guessing some of you can relate. And it’s not so much that we are afraid to make a decision, but we afraid to make the wrong one. So here are some thoughts, words, and inner-movements that have brought me peace of mind as I so blatantly forget what Matthew 26 says (i.e. “do not worry about tomorrow…”) on a regular basis.
I have found that the most difficult decisions to make are the ones in which it seems that there is no “right” answer. You can choose left. Or you can choose right. Contrary to popular belief right is not always right… and neither is left. They are just two different options and therefore each one will cause you to end up in a different place.
I sometimes find myself racking my brain for the “right answer” when faced with a decision. I act as if I might make the wrong choice and with that, my life will come crumbling down right before my eyes and God will look at me like “Yeah sorry, you-uh shoulda made the right choice… this is all on you. Good luck cleaning up this mess lol.” But then my heart stirs and the God who lives inside of me is like hold up. His words speak louder than the fear and doubt inside of me. His truth wins over.
And He says to me,
As if you have that much power over your own life! As if you have that much control! As if what you do will change the ultimate plan I have for your life, the good I have in store for you.
He softly reminds me in a still small voice that He is sovereign above all things. And there is definitely a way to make wise decisions, but even failing to do so will not permanently stray me from His perfect plan and promise.
I’ve learned not to expect so much from myself. In all actuality, I am really not much without Jesus. I’ve learned that oftentimes I simply cannot know what’s best for me at the moment, because I can’t see the future. And that is okay. Only He can see the big picture so all He requires of me is to take His hand and stay as close as to Him as possible; to simply trust Him and keep moving forward towards True North. True North is a term a good friend used the other day to describe the direction of seeking Jesus first above all things. By doing so, it is impossible to fail.
Matthew 6:33 says, “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”
Now I don’t think “all these things” is talking about unnecessary material possessions, I think this is talking about things like love, joy, and peace. Along with the necessary things we need to make life’s big and tough choices such as discernment and the Holy Spirit.
Learning to discern God’s voice is the only way to discern His plan for our lives. In order to discern His voice, we need to be familiar with it.
John 15:26 says “When the Advocate comes, whom I will send to you from the Father—the Spirit of truth who goes out from the Father—he will testify about me.”
The Holy Spirit will always speak in accordance with the truth because He comes straight from the Father and He points us directly to Jesus. So by seeking God’s truth and in reading and meditating on His word, we can start to recognize if God is pointing us in a specific direction. And sometimes I believe it’s possible there is no right answer, because either one will bring Him glory, and that’s truly what we are here for. So before you make a weighty decision, simply choose to submit to His will and His ways, because they are higher and greater and more beautiful than any life we could ever orchestrate for ourselves on this earth.
Lastly, I just want to share some simple lyrics from a Steffany Gretzinger song called Steady Heart.
I can’t see
What’s in front of me
Still I will trust You
Still I will trust You
Steady heart that keeps on going
Steady love that keeps on holding
Lead me on
Steady grace that keeps forgiving
Steady faith that keeps believing
Lead me on